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Anonymous asked:

Answer your questions please :((((((((

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Answering them now! Planning on not letting them build up like this, I feel awful for ignoring people for so long I’ve been working two jobs and my internet’s been so broken, I know, crap excuses but I’m trying to make up for it now! I’m so sorry!

Anonymous asked:

I am so fucking messed up, I can't do anything right... I decided I should tell my friend about me cutting and she ditched me. She was the only one I trusted and the only one that I felt actually cared about me. I'm done, I'm ready to end it all... I have nothing left

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Please come off of anon and message me publicly so I can reply to you one-on-one privately :( I don’t want you to end it, I really don’t. I’ve been there and I know how you feel (I know it’s like ‘fuck off’ when someone says that because surely they have no idea but I’ve felt like this before trust me) and I’m so, so glad I didn’t pull the plug. Particularly as recently a local guy died and he was only eighteen years old. Four hundred people showed up at his funeral. That means at least four hundred people cried over his death, and many of them are still mourning now. Can you imagine causing that much pain to a massive number of people by choice? Suicide is an irreversible solution to solvable problems. There are so, so many people who would love to be in the position you’re in, no matter how many fucked up situations you think you’ve got yourself in. There is always a way out. There is always a solution. There is. I promise. So many people would want to be alive right now and to waste this amazing incredible opportunity you have to be on this earth and do something fantastic with your life, to cut it short and say that’s enough at this stage, would be completely insulting to them. I know you probably don’t care about that because you’re hitting rock bottom, but people have always been through far, far worse and come out of the other side of it all and developed into braver, tougher people. I went through some awful, awful times when I was younger. I don’t regret them. Enough about me. Please keep yourself on this planet. I’m begging you. You don’t need that girl if she ran a mile because you shared one of your darkest secrets with her. I’ll listen, no judgement. Please come off anon and I’ll do anything I can to hear you out at least. Nothing to lose by staying alive at least a little longer. Also I’ve used this quote before but life is one tidal wave after another. Each one bigger than the last, each one trying to break you and bring you down and end you. It’s up to you about how you handle them, and how strong you are at the end will be evident. Just hang in there. It gets better. I promise. 

Anonymous asked:

you should definitely do a youtube channel!!! :)

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WOOHOO I’m scared, I’ll film a few and think about posting them over the next week or so :)

Anonymous asked:

You should do youtube videos

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Definitely considering this

Anonymous asked:

I love the youtube idea!

answered:

Thank you! I really might do it, anyone else think I should answer questions with videos? My replies would probably be faster oops

Anonymous asked:

you should change your font, it's hard to read

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Normally I would say NEVER CHANGE FOR ANYBODY but agreed my font sucked and I didn’t know how to change it. Changed now though! 

Anonymous asked:

this might sounds so weird and desperate but i've been sooo infatuated with this one boy since 7th grade. i'm now going to be a senior in high school and i've never talked to him. he's part of a "popular" crowd and i have no idea how to talk to him or if i even should. what do i do?

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I have no idea what you should do. He might just be one of those good looking guys who every girl at school likes. You might just have to deal with the fact that nothing will happen, particularly as it’s summer now. He also might be a bit of a tosser if he’s in with a certain crowd, but that’s just me being presumptuous. No harm in striking up a conversation with him though? Add him on facebook, say hi. If he says hi back and starts talking to you and replies to your messages quickly and frequently, he’s probably interested. You’ll never know though if you never try, though. If he ignores you, don’t bother. Give your time and attention to someone who cares for it and will appreciate it. You have nothing to lose in being friendly though :)

Anonymous asked:

Sorry about how long this is part three and she constantly cheats on them, and that bothers me, and she younger than me by a bit and considering im 16 and she like 13 is just strange. I only kissed her in the first place cause she was curious about it and just wanted to kiss me and get over her silly crush, but now she constantly threatens me, we just fallen out for the fourth time in bout three months, and it constant, ill tell everyone if you don't do this don't do and i just want it to stop.

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(part 3) That’s okay you can send as many parts as you want, I’m so sorry it’s taken me so long to reply. I didn’t realise she was 13! 13 is an awful age for most teenagers, she’s got all sorts of hormones and crazy experimental thoughts and “oh people cut when they’re sad therefore I’m sad so I’ll cut myself” this sounds very insensitive of me to say but it’s true, there are plenty of young teenagers who have yet to experience genuine clinical depression so turn to cutting as a cry for help when they don’t get what they want. You also need to bare in mind that she’s not in your year group so anything she says you can completely deny if you don’t want people to know. Definitely take the high road by remembering (and I 100% know this from experience) things are only “talk of the school” for a short period of time out of your entire education there. Things get said, rumours start, people get bored, they move onto the next “big news” and people who are your true friends will be friends with you regardless. Don’t let this little girl control your life more than she has already, just let her know you’d be hurt if she acted out like she’s threatening to and if she does go mental and tell everyone (which she might) just completely cut her out of your life. Blank her. She’s too negative, you don’t want that around you. No matter how many threats she makes, you’ve got to live your life and don’t you dare let her control it. The only person calling the shots with your life is you. Remember that. I don’t know how to get her to stop threatening you but let her know how you’d be very hurt and take my advice ^ on how to handle it if shit hits the fan. It sucks that this happened to you but it’ll teach you a lot about teenage girls and friendship, I genuinely believe some teenage girls go through some years of being psychotic and then come out of the other side of it either as a bitch or as someone quite normal. School is school and you don’t have that much longer there, it’s not your whole life and you spend the majority of your time not even there so get an education but move on and have fun and enjoy your life when you’re not there as well as when you are. It’s not your whole life. I hope this helped :) 

Anonymous asked:

and saying she was depressed and cutting over me. Then We would have rows, and she would get all upset and not talk to me, when at the start we agreed okay thats it now werejust friends. And would say that she would tell the whole school my secrets and that i deserved it cause i broke her heart and whatever. And saying it was karma and whatnotwhen multiple times i would try to explain to her whyi didn't want to be with her, and the fact that she has all these boyfriends andstuff,kinda bothers me

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(part 2) I didn’t get part 1 of this but I can guess it was an abusive emotionally blackmailing relationship. This girl is bitch crazy, I have no sympathy for someone who cuts over their partner and blames them and tells them, like what on earth are you meant to do about it? They’ve got the razor, it’s a cry for attention. It’s blackmail to get you to do what they want you to do. Same as with her threatening to tell the whole school your secrets. You absolutely did the right thing ending things with this girl. The only thing you can do is tell her she’d be really hurtful and upsetting to you if she did open her mouth and spread your private business around the whole school, it’s not fair and you’re better apart.